Chapter 9

I've had a few moments to breathe over the weekend, so I decided to work on revisions and edits for the necromancer book again. And there's a secret, secret project I'm working on, too. But that can't be seen by the public's eye for a long time. Currently it's for Mara and Emily (the fangirls) only.

I only have Monday set up for subbing, so I might be getting a lot more of this done this week. I'd rather be working, though. I tend to get a little crazy when I'm left at home all day. I start thinking about how my life isn't the way I want it, and how crappy things have been, and how I wish I had a real, fulltime job, and how much I want to eat cake for breakfast. Come on, teachers, get sick, go out of town, take a personal day. I want to keep busy! I have a hard time relaxing.

Like today I got to sit down before 7pm. I'm the queen of leisure. And then I stay up late reading and writing. At least I have caffeinated beverages to ease the pain. In my dream world, I would stay up until 2 am, writing like J.K. Rowling. I'd hire someone to wake up early with my kids, make them breakfast, and take them to school. I would sleep until 10, go for a run, take a shower, and then write, write, write until time to pick them up from school. But this is the real world where horrible things like bills and bedtime exist.

But in the mean time, here's this thrown together chapter for you. If you haven't noticed, Cass is me. She's dealing with a crappy situation, a life she doesn't want, and is trying to be brave and make the best out of it. But mostly she complains and eats cake and wishes she was someone else. If only my life could be a little more life hers. I'd take the dead if I could have a hot Reaper and a hot mortal in my life to keep things interesting. But this is why I write, so I can have fun and do thing I would normally never do. My protagonists are always mostly me. It's how I'd react in the same situation. And they usually have forty boys in love with them, because let's face it, I would love that, too.

Chapter 9

          I stare at the brass lion knocker on Gran’s door for so long that I start to go cross-eyed. I don’t really know how I got here. I had planned on driving through Dunkin Donuts and eating away my sorrows with a dozen Boston Creams, but I bypassed the restaurant and the 5,000 unneeded calories and found myself her at Gran’s. We share property with my grandparents, but I avoid coming here like I avoid salad.  

Most grandmothers let you eat cookies for breakfast and allow you to stay up way past your bedtime. Edith Anderson is like a pretty, petite drill sergeant. I can’t face her yet. I lose my nerve after a few moments, and sit on the brick stairs and lean against a white marble lion.

            I don’t want to see my grandmother, but I know she will be able to answer a lot of questions Mom never could. Gran knows more than the rest of us because she has in her possession the last century of our family’s Grimoires of the Dead. Maybe she’ll know something about the apocalypse, too, and why the Reaper is stalking me. I have to suck up my pride and get all this information from Gran because I don’t Mom to know about my hunch that my powers extend past necromancy. Nor do I want her to know about the visions and how much I’m seeing the Reaper. Mom freaks out, always jumping to the worse possible conclusion. Like if I won the lottery, Mom would automatically assume I would be arrested for tax fraud or something. So it’s best to keep her in the dark until the last possible moment.

            But I can’t face the world’s meanest grandmother after the day I’ve had. I gaze out at Gran’s perfect yard. She has won Garden of the Year for the last three decades. I think the garden club women and weeds fear her, and I don’t blame them. She does have a team of yard men who keep the azalea and hydrangea bushes in line. She even has a tree doctor in charge of maintaining her fifty foot high live oaks.

I try to remember some good memory of my summers here that involve my grandmother. But all I can think of is Granddaddy, who would let me sneak into his bedroom and watch his tiny black and white TV and eat peanut brittle until my stomach hurt.

“Are you coming in, Cass?” It’s Mary their maid, sticking her head out the front door. “Your grandmother is in the parlor waiting for you.”

I stand and do my best to straighten out my clothes and hair, trying to look presentable, even though I know by now my hair is in unruly curls and my face is shinny with sweat. Just like my mother, Gran hates that I don’t wear makeup and frilly dresses. She thinks woman should never wear pants, but she doesn’t have to chase ghosts. Well, I guess she did once upon a time, but she’s retired now.

Gran is waiting for me in the formal living room, on a down feather filled chaise that was around when Henry the 8^th ruled England. The whole place is filled with china and antiques, making it more like a museum, a place where you’re scared to death to touch anything. I give a tentative smile to Gran as I perch myself on her soda.

Gran is dressed in a navy skirt, matching pink twin sweat set, high heels, and pearls. Her dyed brown football helmet of a hairdo is teased a little higher today, but she looks just the same as she did last summer, like a housewife from the 1950s.

“You’ve been here over a week, and failed to visit your only living grandparents, Cassandra Maria Charon,” Gran says. I cringe the sound of my full name.

“Sorry,” I say, not meaning it. I have been to the house. I came over last week to visit Granddaddy when I knew Gran had her standing appointment at the beauty parlor to set her hair. I even sneaked in candy for Granddaddy.

“Your sister has come by three times.”

“Well, she’s the saint and I’m the sinner. I also don’t attend church, whereas the perfect Jenny is a Sunday School Teacher as well as a member of the choir.”

“You, of all people, should see the importance of religion. You deal with death and evil every day. Wouldn’t you want the protection of our Lord and Savior to protect you from the things you fight against?”

I roll my eyes. “Oh, I’ve got my ghost beads and bayberry tea. You see, these things are real,” I say, holding up my ghost beads and snapping the bracelet against my wrist. “Tangible. I can see and feel them. God is theatrical, and he doesn’t exist. Because if he did, I wouldn’t be stuck with this stupid life full of death. He’d keep all his dead with him, where they belong.”

“You’re missing the point of religion, Cass. You have to have faith to see it.”

“Whatever,” I say. I know my attitude doesn’t help our rocky relationship, but I can’t help it. I don’t know why, but there is something about Gran that makes me challenge and defy.  

She glares at me, and asks, “Why are you here?”

I’m done with the snarky small talk so I just remove my watch and hold up my wrist. “I met the Reaper last night.”

“Baby Girl!” Granddaddy calls from the hall.

He has on his cotton polo, dress slacks and a tattered old robe over the ensemble. I jump up, kiss him on the cheek, and slip a candy bar into his robe pocket. Behind his thick glasses, he winks at me. His hair has gotten thinner and his eyes a little more sunken in, making him look much older than the last time I saw him, but he’s still my sweet granddaddy who sat up with me when I couldn’t sleep through the night my first summer here.  

“Happy Birthday!” he says. “Did you get my birthday card?”

            “Yes, Granddaddy. Thank you for the money.” In the card, Granddaddy wrote a page of reasons why he loved me, but Gran couldn’t even bother to sign her name at the bottom. Granddaddy forged it.

“Now, I don’t want you to put that money away in the bank. You use it to buy whatever you want, something frivolous.”

            “Use is to buy a dress,” Gran says, chiming in. “Something ladylike.”

“Maybe I’ll buy some jeans and boots,” I reply, smiling at her. Last Christmas when we came to visit, she continually commented on my “manly” torn up jeans and scuffed boots. She made me so mad that I ended up wearing the same outfit the entire time I stayed with her, even though I brought a duffle bagful of clothes.

Granddaddy ignores Gran’s snide remark, and hugs me again, and says, “You’re pretty in anything you wear because of your smile.” I grin was so wide that my cheeks hurt. Granddaddy is the only person in the world who never has any criticism on the way I look. He glances at Gran. “I should get down to my office and check on my stocks. Don’t be a stranger, Baby Girl.”

The moment Granddaddy is gone, Gran yanks my arm toward her. “How is this possible?”

“What? Am I not good enough to be the Marked?” I ask, suddenly defensive of something I don’t even want.

            “I didn’t say that,” she replies. Then she sighs and rubs her thumb over the Mark, like she’s trying to wipe it away, just like I did last night. I want to pull away from her, but her touch is tender for once. “It’s going to be difficult, and you might not survive it.”

            “Sucks to be me, then,” I say.

            Her face purses up and she takes her hand from my wrist. “Don’t say sucks. It’s improper.” She stands up from the chaise and disappears down the hallway that leads to her bedroom. After a few minutes, she returns with a well-worn book in her hands. She opens it and places it I my lap.

            On the page is a sketch of a tall, thinned face man. No, a boy. A boy I recognize.

            “How do you know Reiner?”

            “How do you know his name?”

“He told me.”

“You talked to him?” she asks.

“Yeah. He keeps popping up.”

“Anyone who has ever seen him has died. I don’t understand why you’re still alive.”

“You’ve seen him, and you’re still kicking.”

“I’ve only seen him in dreams.” She tucks a strand of hair behind my ear. “And I’ve seen you, too, though I didn’t realize it was you at the time.”

            “You have visions?”

            “I used to. It’s been a long time,” she replies. She looks out the large bay window that faces the creek. She doesn’t speak for so long that I think she might have forgotten I was there. “Twenty years ago, I saw a little boy who had been abducted on his way home from school.”

            “Did you save him?”

            Her face sours more than usual. “No. He died, and everyone in town blamed me, even though I told them where to find him. If they were have listened, he would be getting married and having children now, instead of rotting in a grave. Whatever you do, don’t go to the police. They’ll only find a way to turn everything against you. You won’t be able to save anyone.”

            “I’ve been having visions, too. I’ve been seeing a missing girl from school.”

            “Ignore whatever you see. Nothing you can do will save her. She’s already dead.”

            I don’t tell her I already went to the police, nor do I tell her I probably blew up some lights, but at least it made him listen to me. I stand up to go, wanting to escape. The witch questions can wait. I don’t really want to know the answers anyway. Then I remember what she said about her visions. She’d seen Reiner. And me. That I do have time to find out about.

            “In your visions, what did you see me doing?”

            “You should never know you’re future,” she replies. “It’s dangerous.”

            “Just tell me. I think I’ve already seen it anyway. I end up with the Reaper in the end, don’t I?”

            “Yes and no, but I’ve never seen clearly which side you end up on.”

            “What do you mean?” I ask. “What side would I end up on? The bad side?”

            She shrugs her bony shoulder. “I told you that I don’t know.”

            “Another part of the prophecy appeared in my Grimoire yesterday.” I quote it for her, “With the Reaper’s Mark, she will gather the dead. For in Purgatory the army will be bred. The Reaper she will love. The Reaper she will hate. The world’s balance hangs on love’s fate.”

            Her face is more sad than irritated this time. “You will help gather the dead.”

“I’ve been collecting spirits my entire life, and sending them back to the Afterworld. So that makes sense. And the army in Purgatory has to be the undead that will rise, so I suppose I put a lot of them there.”

“But do you understands what the rest means?” she asks.

            I look out the window in front of me, and for a brief moment, Reiner appears, standing in the middle of Gran’s award winning flower bed. He raises his blond eyebrows at me, like he somehow knows that we’re talking about him. Then he gives me a little wave, and disappears again. I stare at the spot he vacated, and finally understand the prophecy.

            “If I love the Reaper, the world will end. We will lose the war because of me,” I say. This revelation doesn’t surprise me. I suck at doing the right thing, and I’ve always believed being Marked would be in itself a death sentence. That must be why the Reaper is constantly at my side. He said himself that I would die soon. Death has always surrounded me. Death is my life. It would make sense that I die before I’m ready.

            “Perhaps,” Gran says. “Perhaps you will be the reason we win.”

            I laugh, thinking she’s joking, but she gives me a sobering looking, forcing the mirth right out of me. “I just have to make sure I don’t fall in love with him,” I say, but it’s more to myself than to her. I hate admitting it, even to myself, but I am drawn to him when I should hate him. The dream about us in Purgatory was so real, everything I’d ever wanted. Love, home, a purpose.

            Too bad I’d have to betray the living to get it. Too bad I’ll have to be dead.

            “Not falling in love with a Reaper shouldn’t be hard,” she says.

            She has never met him in person. She has no idea how hard it will be. “Yeah,” I say. I point down at her sketch of him. “Look at him. He’s hideous.” I shut the book and place it on the coffee table, face down, like that’ll stop me from remembering how creepy and yet attractive he is. “What else have you seen about the Reaper?”

            “He’s the Reaper of the Apocalypse, the one who releases the dead into this earth, the reason all life will be in peril.”

            “I’ll kill him,” I say. “Before he has the chance let out the dead.” I have always been a stab-the-ghost-first kind of girl, so doing away with him should be easy for me. I’ve just got to forget what I saw and felt when I was in Purgatory with him in my vision. I’ve just got to find a way to stop wanting to have him pop up out of nowhere.

            “You can’t kill a Reaper,” Gran says, frowning

“If you can’t kill a Reaper, then how am I supposed to kill Abaddon? Isn’t that the point of me being Marked?” I ask.

“There is a way to kill Abaddon, but we don’t know what it is yet. We’ve been trying to figure it out for centuries.”

“I’ll figure it out. I’ll find a way to kill him.” I’m full of fake confidence, like I’m full of denial.

Gran smiles sadly and leans over to cup my face. “Oh, Baby Girl, I’m so sorry it has to be you.” She kisses my forehead, and with tears in her eyes, she gets up and leaves the room. Stunned that she’s being so nice, I sit where I am on her antique sofa. I’m not sure how long I stay there, staring out the window, thinking of love and the Reaper and the Apocalypse. It takes Mary the Maid coming in with the vacuum to wake me from my daydreams. She offers me some sweet tea, but instead of answering, I leave without saying a word.            

After I leave Gran’s, I walk over to where I found Brittany’s purse. Maybe I can discover something there to direct me to Brittany. I know she is in the woods near the water, but the creek runs through Ravines and two other towns. So much of the area is unpopulated. Then something clicks. Blake said almost the same thing to me. The creek is no indication of where she is. 

When I reach the drainage ditch, I bend down to get a better view of the ground, running my fingers over the leaves, hoping to force a helpful visions of Brittany.

Yes, I feel her pain and fear when I see her, but nothing that would help me find her. I can’t even see the guy’s face. He could be anyone, but most likely it’s Blake. I agree with the police, he’s the most likely suspect for a reason. He had the means, the opportunity, and the motive.

From behind, I feel someone approaching. My first though is of defending myself. I reach for my iron knife. I spin around, ready to attack.

“Hey, Cass,” Blake says in his sweetest Southern accent. Then he looks down and sees the knife in my hand. He starts to back away. “Whoa. I come in peace.”
            I put the knife back into its sheath. “I thought you were a ghost,” I say. But what he is could be a whole lot worse than being a dead thing. He was the last person to see Brittany and they were fighting. Brittany knows her assailant and had an intimate relationship with him. It has to be Blake. It’s the only logical explanation.

Blake notices me studying him, and gives me a cocky smile, probably assuming I’m admiring his good looks. He moves his hand under the hem of my shirt, letting his fingers brush up my spine, it takes everything in me not to slap him. “I like that you carry a knife,” he says. “It’s kind of sexy.”

Like most men, he doesn’t take a girl seriously, but even though he outweighs me, I could take him down with little effort. “I’m not sexy. I’m dangerous.” I’m so irritated with him that he frightened me, and that he thinks he can put his hands up my shirt anytime he pleases, and that he may be Brittany’s kidnapper that I twist away from him that I pull my knife back out and position it underneath his chin, right against his windpipe.

I think you’re both,” he replies. “Being hot doesn’t discredit your strength.”

Most girls would take offense at what he said when I take it as a complement. I hide my smile, not wanting to let him distract me from what I want to know. “Did you take Brittany?” I ask, pressing the knife against his throat. He swallows, causing the blade to nick his Adam’s apple. His aqua blue eyes start to water at the pain I cause him. Realizing that he’s frightened of me, I release him. He stumbles away, rubbing his neck where I nicked him with the knife.

“You think I had something to do with this?” he asks.

Looking at Blake, most people see a handsome charmer, but I know that looks are always deceiving and you see what you want to see. I know him. I’ve known him my whole life, and while I was always a little in love with him, I knew not everything about him was as wonderful as it appeared. “You’re a liar and a cheater. Why not a kidnapper, too?”

“What are you talking about?” he demands. “I’ve never lied or cheated.”

            “You lie every day, Blake. It’s called flirting. And you cheated when you kissed me last summer when you had a girlfriend.”

He shoves his hands into his pockets, and looks down to his feet, causing his dark wavy hair to fall into his repentant eyes. “I’ve always wanted you, Cass. Brittany wasn’t and isn’t my girlfriend.”

“Just someone you slept with?” I ask.

“No. It wasn’t like that.”

“Then tell me.”

“I can’t.”

“Well, until you do, I’ll just assume it’s you in my visions.”

“What visions? What have you being seeing, Cass? I thought you only saw ghosts.”

“There’s more to my abilities. Brittany is close to death, so I’ve been dreaming about

her. All I know is that Brittany is dating whoever took her. I can never see his face, though.”

            “All those summers we spent together and you just assume it’s me?”

            “Yes,” I say. What can I say? I have trust issues, and it doesn’t help that Blake lied to me about him and Brittany.

“Then you don’t know me at all.”

“I guess I don’t.”

            The moment I say it, I know I’m wrong about him. He smells different than the man who has Brittany, sounds different, too. It’s not him in the visions, but someone else, someone older and scary. Blake may be a liar and a serial flirt, and he may have hurt me, but that doesn’t make him the kidnapper.

As I watch him stomp into the woods, disappearing from my sight, my heart sinks down to me knees. This isn’t how I wanted things to go at all. I should apologize, but I don’t say anything. I stare at the drainage ditch, hoping to at least see something that would help me find Brittany, or hoping that the Reaper might show up and give me some clues, but nothing happens.         I could have had a chance with Blake. He liked me. I don’t have to be a soothsayer to see that, and I ruined everything. He’ll move on to one of my dozens of other girls in Ravines who want to date him. It was too good to be true anyway. Girls like me don’t get guys like Blake. A necromancer is too busy dealing with the dead to have a real life.